Morning Goodbye

I’m not even gonna lie, this man of mine drives me absolutely insane sometimes and if you were to ask him, I would be willing to bet that his truthful response would be similar in regard to me. I know you married couples out there can relate, am I right?  Anyway, on the flip side, we have what I like to call “sweet everythings” because whoever coined the term “sweet nothings” was just not on my level apparently. I wrote a whole Instagram post on the topic years ago that I should probably share here next, so you can completely understand my thoughts on it. Anyway, now that we have that covered, let’s get back to the sweet everythings. One of my favorite examples in our marriage of what I consider a sweet everything is when Steven wakes me up to give me a hug and kiss goodbye almost every morning before he heads off to work.  This is probably one of the most pure, beautiful, and important, little things that he does for me. Growing up, this simple and sweet gesture is something that I always envisioned would be part of my everyday as a married woman and I’m so happy to say that it has turned out that way. Although it is not a popular way to think, I have always been one to remain very conscious of the greater picture in life — life itself. What I mean by that is, I am one who is capable of setting a disagreement or tense feeling aside for that hug and kiss goodbye in the morning because you just never know what could happen in a day. In any type of relationship — friends, family, whoever — I always try my best to leave on a positive note. This has always been important to me, but became even that much more important after losing my brother, Tom, as suddenly a distant worry had become my reality. 💙 Now, go back up to the sentence about my favorite example of a sweet everything in our marriage. Did you see that I said ALMOST everyday? To clarify, I would say that this happens about 95% of the time. About 4% of the time entails my husband being prideful and stubborn AF because he is upset with me. Those mornings break my heart, but he has his reasons (which I try to understand and respect) and he always comes back around eventually. Then there is 1% of the time that he has genuinely been in a rush to get to work and forgot. Today, I woke up to my alarm clock and immediately realized that he did not say goodbye to me. I was certain that he wasn’t upset with me, so I figured it was the rare day that he just forgot. I called him, calmly questioning his forgetfulness, so I could be sure I was accurate in my assumption. He said, “I didn’t want to wake you up because you looked so peaceful sleeping, so I blew you an air kiss instead.”  MELT. MY. HEART.  He knows that sleeping is becoming increasingly uncomfortable with each day that passes during my pregnancy. Although his thoughtfulness is so greatly appreciated, I told him that I would still prefer to be woken up regardless because it means that much to me (which he totally understands). But seriously, how cute was his explanation?  See, these are those in-between fairy tale moments I always write about, the ones that keep love alive. I kid you not when I say that we have been through hell and back together multiple times, but our love forever shines through the darkest times like the Southern Cross in the night sky of Lembogan following the most gorgeous sunset ever seen. 😘 All that being said, I randomly found this photo on my phone this morning. Clearly, it’s from our wedding day. I have no idea who took it, but thank you.  Dressed in our wedding attire, the sign on the ground reads “Happily Ever After” and then you can zoom in to see that Steven’s sign reads “Crazy Town”. Both appropriate. Both so fitting for my words. And both of us, so oddly fitting for each other. Please don’t take this the wrong way, but genuinely, if anything ever happens to me unexpectedly, will someone please remind my husband that through all the ups and downs, I am eternally grateful for every hug and kiss goodbye he ever gave me? It means that much to me. And although he acts nonchalantly about it now, it will mean that much to him, too. ❤️

All my love,
His Wifey, Happily Ever After in Crazy Town